Yeah...I'm resurrecting an old dream...to go to school in Hawaii. Not many people know of this dream. My sister was surprised. "Mom and Dad will be pissed!" she said.
One good reason to do it then!
You know...I never really realized how contrary I am. Or how rebellious I am. Or how stubborn I am. I always thought that I portrayed myself as the devoted, doting, sweet, angelic, favorite daughter. I mean, I did what I was told (or so they thought). There weren't many times when I actually went toe-to-toe with my Dad and my Mom was so relaxed about what she wanted that there was no NEED to fight her. So, really, I didn't push the proverbial envelope to see how really rebellious I could be.
Boy, have I done it now!
Yeah...my parents halfway expected me to move back after my husband died and now that it's been 7 years, they are more of the attitude of "When you're through throwing your fit and move back home...", which isn't quite how it is.
Although some days I feel as if I'm here just to piss them off.
Boy, wouldn't flying past Utah in order to move out of the continental United States really chap their hide (I'm almost giggling as I type that). After I graduated with my Associate's my mother said to me, "Are you going to get a REAL job now?" as if working my @$$ off for my education wasn't important. THEN when I started on my Bachelor's she said she'd ALLOW me to finish school and then expects me to move back. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Allow me. ALLOW me! She's so funny. I don't remember asking her permission. But she's 77 and I love her, so we'll let her live out the fantasy that she'll "allow" me to get my schooling done.
But who said I was finished?
Yeah...I liked the idea of having an Associate Degree. I LOVE the idea of having a Bachelor Degree. The thought of having a MASTER Degree really makes me tingle. Especially getting it in Hawaii. What an atmosphere for learning!
...and for playing.
I still have a few years before I can really make this one a reality, but as far as goals go, this is a good one for down the road. Finish up school here in Dayton. Maybe I could even spend a few years in Salt Lake with the parents and get my Master's at the U of U then go off to Hawaii for a few years without the burden of studying. Oh...and I can't forget touring America on a Honda with my cat....but all in due time. I have some years left on me for the things I've wanted to do and my household is shrinking, so that frees me up. Finally, I have some excitement for the future and it doesn't seem so bleak. I can make it what I want to be...
...one step closer to a native.
